This Autumn seems like the most vivid Autumn I’ve ever experienced. I notice the change of colours in the leaves like I’ve never before. I read on another beareaved mother’s post that after losing a child you experience joy as you never have before. And that is true in a way for me. Although happiness […]
Since Jude died I’ve found my empathy levels off the scale in both directions. When my husband and I visited the Lake District before Carter was born I cried when I thought about lambs being killed for meat. I was never that person. Before Jude I never was too fussed about animal welfare. But that […]
Since having my second son, Carter, I’ve started doing many of the things I expected to do with my first son Jude who died. Because Jude had SMA and a cold could have a knock on impact and result in his death we decided not to take him to any baby groups. Before Jude was […]
I remember my son every single minute of every single day, so when we were invited to Shooting Star Chase’s Remembering Day I 100% wanted to go. My husband was happy to go to “support me” but wasn’t sure it would be his thing. But knowing the hospice always fed us well I was confident […]
So after spending ALL my life with long hair, I decided on 5 August to have my hair chopped short. This may not seem particularly monumental or at all related to Jude but it was. I don’t think I would have had the confidence to do it before. But with our 8 week old Carter keep being sick […]
An open letter to those who have an opinion about memorials… This week this topic has been very much at the forefront of my mind for various reasons..